I have gotten to that point in my life, where the world is my playground and I can do absolutely whatever I want. I don't have a place that I necessary need to be, no studies, no job, no boyfriend and no family. I can go wherever I want to go, do whatever I want to do. It is just up to me,myself and I to make a decision and choose a ride to jump on to. But when you are standing here and choosing what it is that you want to do, it feels like you are just spinning and spinning, and the world is just getting more blurry and blurry, because it is just spinning faster and faster. The only problem is, I can't decide which ride I want to ride right now. My entire life I have done everything I have wanted to do. I have always made things happen. People often ask me "Why does these things happen to you?" Well simple, I make them happen. I go where my heart tells me and I follow my gut feeling. Because I know that I will be happy no matter where I end up, because it is what my heart told me to do. The road getting there is usually alot more bumpy for people like me, rather for people who think and plan their way there. Because they are more prepared for all kinds of consequences. I am never prepared, but some how I still manage to hit the ball back and move forward.
But today, I am standing on my mountain and I am looking down on the world and I have absolutely no idea where I will be heading, I don't even know where I want to head.
This is what I have learned, you can't talk to everyone about it, because the more opinions you get, the even more lost you will be, because you will end up hearing voices from all angles, and when it comes down to it, only you can figure out what you want and what is best for you. Find one person, one person that knows you better than anyone, and someone who only wants you to be happy, someone you trust enough to push you into the right direction.
I think it is important that you make decisions upon what you, yourself want. But sometimes when there are too many choices, maybe just having someone to get on the escalator will help you get there faster. It doesn't matter who it is, as long as you have someone. I thought I had lost the person that I trust most in this entire world. But it turned out that if they genuinely care , they are there for you when needed. Sometimes you just need a little extra heart hanging around your neck to remind you that
You are never alone, only if you choose to be.
