We grew apart, and we moved on.

family reunion

Here are a few pictures from our little family reunion this weekend! I love you all :)

Take it easy, but take it.

You're fading

You say you love me
Well they feel like words to me
Well this just ain't working

Stop thinking you can run over me
I'm drifting, I'm settling
Off to a foreign place
If I can't see what's in front of me
It's a mystery, well then apparently
Things just ain't the same
And I'm ready for change
Go on, begone, bye bye, so long
Can't you see that you're
Fading, fading, fading, fa-a-a-a-away
Away, away, away, away
I opened up my eyes, and I finally realized
Today, today, it's too late
You're fading away
Put a sock in it just stop running your mouth
Got my mind made up, I ain't coming back again
No way, no way, no way, no way
'Cuz I'm so fed up, boy you got me messed up
If you hit me back up, don't press your luck today, today
I'm blowing you away
So you turned into a ghost right in front of my eyes
Tell me what's a girl to do when she's crying inside?
I'm about to go and say
I'm jumping off this train
Whether wrong or right, I'll be gone by night.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4wAyHyQeOiI

a snowy day!

Finally had my exam today! Only one more to go in like 2 weeks! After the exam today My friend Louise and I went for a lovely walk in all the snow and beautiful sunshine and then we met up for some hot chocolate with Sofia and Ullis.
Tonight we are having susho and drinks and then we are going out! Yayyy!

Rihanna - What's My Name? ft. Drake

I really like this song :)

Happy thanksgiving my lovely people

Happy Thanksgiving everyone!

I may not be in Buffalo with my so called American family, BUT I was at least virtually there! I was lucky enough to get a photo with them :)

I AM SO THANKFUL FOR THEM! Especially Maddy, because she's been my best friend for 4.5 years and I am very thankful to still have her by my side!

I love you all so very much! I miss you guys more than imaginable.

:)

I do this hairdo EVERYDAY.

hahaha

Peeka-boo

it's just three words!

I am now sitting and having my morning cup of coffee, as I am half dying from a 40 degree fever and horrible throat pains.
But I was just on my friend Emma's blog http://lifeisabuffetdinner.blogspot.com/.

It is a really nice blog with a lot of good sayings. Since my life is based on wise and meaningful quotes it was a pick me up. However on one of her old blog entries she writes "There are hundred way of showing that you miss someone, but it doesn't mean anything unless you say it." That really made me smile. Because I do have a good way of showing people that I think about them and that they are with me, even if they aren't physically with me. But, "I miss you" has become just words in a way. There are people who it is really easy telling them you miss them, and then there are some that you just don't know want to waste those words on because you doubt they would mean anything to them anyways. Therefore, I have begun to shut those feelings towards those people. But why should you do that? That's silly!

Well most people have no idea what I am talking about now, I am sure. But I guess I just want to let the this person know that "I miss you." I wish I didn't, but I know I do deep down inside. I don't know what that means though. Does it always have to mean something? I don't think it does. I think it can just mean that I miss that part of my life. That I miss certain things about you. Things you do, we did or that I did for you. Doesn't mean that it is something I want or something I am longing for, it just means that they were great times and that you are great person. That my life is different without that great person in my life. So now I am telling you something that I would never admit "I miss you. I miss you a shit load actually."

SO to sum up, I know how you can be strangling yourself to not feel these feelings. You know what, I think it is okay. Tell them! It can't hurt? It won't make things worse. I know when I am told that I am missed it makes me feel special, it makes me feel good. So don't be too scared what the other person may think or say. Because no matter what they say or might not say anything at all; you at least know that deep down inside at least their heart is a little bit warmer.

"I miss you" are Only three words to warm someones heart. & probably yours as well.

Thank you Emma Johansson. I miss you! :)

a sweet friendship

The most beautiful discovery true friends make

is that they can grow separately without growing apart.

just a thought

Hey Dumbo, you just poped into my head just now as I was going to bed.

So if you are reading this I hope you are doing good & that you smile tonight when you fall asleep.

That's all... Sweet dreams.

1 month EXACTLY to christmas!

choices

Every choice we make, every road we take

In every interaction, starts a chain reaction

We're both affected, when we least expect it.

Truly asia!

These photos were taking by some random magazine in Malaysia (for the truly asia ads), mine and Maddy's freshman year (9th grade that is). It was so much! I completely forgot them and found them just now. They are such nice photos! With my best friend with my country, malaysia. But Maddy, look at the last picture it made me laugh so hard. We look so retarded!

I just wanted to put these up because they make me smile (maybe not you, but at least maddy too) haha. But they are nice photos and it just represents from the crazy times with maddy and our wild freshman year.

Good memories.

should be love

Your task is not to seek love,

but merely to seek & find all the barriers

within yourself that you have built against it.

inspiration

How amazing would it be to be an inspiration to someone? That just by telling someone something, you inspire them to follow their dreams. You help them up when they are drowning.

By even through a smile, you give the strength to do anything. Fight anything; wars, cancer or just their every day life. What if you have the ability to change someone's life? Wouldn't it be the best feeling in the world being the reason why they look forward to waking up in the morning. It doesn't matter if you are someone's teacher, grandmother, father, sibling, best friend, boyfriend, library woman or just a stranger. Wouldn't that be an amazing feeling?

Today I realized from an old teacher of mine how easily it is to lend out a helping hand without even knowing it. To know that your hello was someone's happiest moment of the day. It is horrible to think that such things are true, but sometimes they are. That is when I look at my life, I realize how great it really is. How fortunate I am. Why was I blessed with all this? Does it take a smile from someone to fullfill my day? No, probably not. But for someone it does. That is what I find amazing. Why do I get to be happy? Why do I get to have no worries at all. How come I was this lucky to be a happy person. That is when I thought...

I want to be someone that touches someone's life so much, that they can genuinely say that they wouldn't be the person that they are today, if they hadn't met me. As cheesy as it sounds I want to make a change, even if it is something small. It's more than only existing.

So maybe a smile or a good morning isn't so cheesy when you realize what a difference it can make.

I want to be an inspiration.

right....

hahahahahhahaha this is what shows up when I was typing in "Why is there..." on google. I love how these are the most searched things. Ah well it made my day :)

Kappppisshhhh!

I want a dobby! Dobbby is my friend :)

I miss you, KL.

I posted this video when I left KL, but I just found it now this morning. It was a good start of my day to watch. When I watched it, it made me realize how great my life has been and how lucky I am to have all these people in my life. I miss you all everyday. But watching this makes me realize how great life is and can be. I miss it all more than I ever expected. You're with me everyday, all the time.

go where it makes you happy to go

This was mine and maddy's life last year.

Made me think of you and all our 100 starbucks dates!

I miss you!

llondon calling

I am going to LONDON in 2 weeks to see my girls! I AM SO EXCITED!

We're going to go Ice skating, christmas window shopping, Hyde Park, sit on santa's lap, drink hot chocolate, cuddle, Fish and chips, party, laugh and love :) hihi

Here are some photos of my future trip!