Tuesday, February 9, 2010
107 days until I graduate :)
As looking around the deck today noticing couples and friends sitting around. The song "you were the soundtrack to my summer.." came on, and it hit me. You were the soundtrack to my high school. This is nothing that bumms me out, nothing that even upsets me any longer. Because you still are. Although reflecting back to your high school, I was only the soundtrack to your senior year. But it was one good song. I remember when you were called up on stage, as you grabbed your diploma a rush of tears were rushed past me. That was the proudest moment of my life. Even though I take no credit, I still felt like I had accomplished something by having you up there. I knew that very moment that things would be different, that things were never going to be the same. But somehow, I didn't care. Because the happiness was shinning from you. Thats all I needed to see to know that you were going to be okay. Because I knew that no matter where in the world where you'd be, you'd feel complete, you'd feel accomplished and you would be happy.
Ever since I met you I have strive and strive to be more like you. It wasn't always about the way you made me feel, it was the way you made me feel about myself. I admired your motivation, your strive and encouragement. It was never anything I wanted to let down. I wanted to prove that I could do it. Now I am...
But I need you in that crowd knowing that I wouldn't be up there if it weren't for you. I need you in that crowd knowing I did the right decision, and I need you in that crowd to cheer me on just like you always have.
This time is not to show that I can, but because I did it.
So yes, I'll be expecting you at Graduation next to Mormor :)