thank you :)

“When it hurts to look back,

and you're scared to look ahead,

you can look beside you

and your best friend will be there”

Uppsala Gasque!

Last night we had our first sitting dinner at my nation "Snerikes". It was alot of fun! I met some great people. I am really loving it here. This only happens in Uppsala! Drinking multiple of snaps and cheapest whine possible that made me want to hurl and shooting those bailey shots for the kicks and giggels because that is how we do it in Uppsala. Having the toast master strip and pretend he's Maogli from the jungle book while playing the guitar and singing. Singing multiple of songs just to have an excuse to take another snaps and dancing on the chairs as a way to say thank you for the dinner. Uppsala is such a great place! Couldnt find a more "Stina" place :)

Soon my friend Emma is coming to visit and I CANT WAIT!

dance baby dance!

When it comes to life,

Live like there is no tomorrow.

Love like you won't get hurt,

Work like you don't need the money

And dance like no one is watching.

MAKE CHANGES.

Life isn't about finding yourself, It's about creating yourself.

When you get to a new place or when you leave something behind you intend to change. When you then realize and people realize that you are changing, most of the time people try to find themselves again. the thing is, DON'T.

I believe at this age you should never go back and try and find who you used to be. Maybe if you are going through a midlife crisis, then fair enough. But if you are just an ordinary teenager whose stepped into adulthood, then don't. Let yourself develop and bloom into this new individual. You values are going to be changing when you are experimenting with the new environment you are in. Especially if you just moved countries, for college or something like that. Try to be different. You might end up valuing yourself alot more. Maybe not. But then every time you meet those from your past, the ones that made you into the person you were then, things will always be the same. That is the beauty of being a human, that you are flexible to change.

Dare to be something different. Dare to change your life.

It's your life, woman.

"Do Epic Shit" Damn straight. It really frustrates me when people say that they are too scared of doing something, that they will end up looking stupid. Well the truth it, most of the time you will. But the best part about it, its usually only you that find yourself stupid. Life is too short to be wasting your time on moping on around on your past, the deal is that this is your present and this is your time, you might not have tomorrow. Therefore, missing out on opportunities out of the fear of being ordinary is just LAME.

Do What You Want! Do the Whatever Epic Shit that you feel like.

Trust me; its a great feeling to feel awesome.

mUFFIN BAKINNN

Today, the weather is very yucky but we saved the day with some MUFFIN BAKING! YUMMM!! Chocolate muffinss!! While we were waiting for the muffins in the oven I did what I do best, PHOTOBOOOTH! Oh yes, Could not find anything that entertains me more than photobooth!
Now, I am gonna head out and get my crunk on. :)
Toodels my poodels!

We'll just have to see I guess.

If it's meant to be, it will make sense. But it doesn't make sense now. Therefore, If it's meant to be, it will be.

It's your time to understand

HAHAHAHA HIGH FIVE!

Uppsala ladies!

Here are some photos of my lovely "behave" ladies :)

I am no longer "dirty blonde" (as i liked to call it). Turned out to be green when you went outside, so therefore I had to go back to being blonde. Here are a few photos from the other night! I love Uppsala!

Some things just changes your life.

Eleanor is a smartypants

Eleanor was such a smart lady. When I saw this photo it really made me smile. It made me think of life in whole. The decisions and choices that you are making this very second will not only effect your next decision but also your tomorrow and most importantly, your future.

Whether it is something simple as what you are having for lunch or what book you decide to read, whether you are breaking up with a boyfriend or girlfriend; the decisions you make will change your future. That is why it is hard to plan your future, where you want to go, with who you want to go with and what you will be doing. Because you might have it all figured out until you pick up that book that has been laying on your family's coffee table, a book that might change your perspective on the world and most importantly YOUR WORLD.

So it is funny how much everything really does matter, from a small thing as choosing the color of your apple (red or green?) to what college you are planing on attending. But in the end of it all, everything does happen for a reason. And that reason is, you.

3 simples rules about life

Things always happen when you least expect them to...

FALL IS BEAUTIFUL

Good one Maddy :)

My Madeleine found love. Love that was unpredicted. But it happened. I am so proud of her for having that courage of stepping into this new world.

She has a blog ( http://maddymakesmanymarvelousmangomuffins.blogspot.com/ )

where she just wrote a great entry about love.

This is from her blog:

That person you think about and you cant help but smile.

Makes you feel like there is a reason to keep trying and not to give up.

When you look in the eyes of that person you can feel them..

In your stomach, in the kiss, in the touch of that other person.

Holding there hand you feel safe and you never want to let go.

When you find that someone that makes you feel this way.

Don't let them go, rain or shine, obstacles, and distance.

Just stick together,

you will know if its real,

Sometime you search and you find it.. most of the time it just hits you,

when you would least expect it.

Don't let go, embrace it..

Its a person you want close to your heart.

"Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own."

“I don't pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me; love is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person, love is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of, love is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees when they walk into a room and smile at you.”

I just really wanted to promote this story. Not just because it was really well written, but because it is true. This is love. This is the definition for what we feel for each other. I know it.

The photo that made my day. Taken by Lene :) HAHA!

I Miss you Madeleine Browning

Together forever,

Never apart,

Maybe in distance,

BUT never at heart.

Everyday

Put it in to action

Love the way you lie

Just gonna stand there

And watch me burn

But that's alright

Because I like

The way it hurts

Just gonna stand there

And hear me cry

But that's alright

Because I love

The way you lie

The truth ALWAYS comes out

You only have control of your own actions, not anybody else's. Therefore, you have to take responsibility for what you do and say. Right now, I am thinking about an action which I have been pleading was completely innocent before. But now, when I think about what I have just done which is very unlike me, makes me wonder why I did it.

I told a white lie. A little one, into the consideration of not hurting you. But as my father once taught me, the truth always comes out no matter how hard you try to cover it.

I guess I always knew that it would come out, maybe in a way I wanted it to.

Maybe I wanted to see if you truly meant everything you told me. Maybe I wanted to see if it would really effect you. Or maybe just to see if your feelings were true.

From playing this little innocent game, that is once was, I did not only end up hurting you but also myself.

I now feel like I don't really know myself any longer. This is not the Stina that I once knew. The Stina that would go to bed every night with a smile, because she knew that she was loved by you. After everything we have been or not been, in the end of every day, I still loved you because I loved the person that I was with you.

Now, I don't even know what I am, or who I am.

No matter where in the world I will be, or how happy I am in the place where I am, its hard being fulfilled when such a big part of me is missing.

I know you are reading this. I need time to find that Stina that I once was, so I know that I will never do it to you again. Because hurting you this much was the biggest mistake I have ever done. But the best realization for myself that I could possibly get.

I promised you once, that I would never change, that I would always remain your Stina Fina.

So I promise you now, I am going to find the Stina that I, myself, even used to admire.

All I can say now is that, I'm sorry.

Like pulling off a bandy.

Heavy peting

Yesterday I went to Stockholm for a night to see my friend Martin, who I haven't seen in about 9 months. It was also nice to get to go to Stockholm for the day, I love that city! During the night we went out and DANNNNCED, good stuff.

Now I am back in Uppsala. I helped my cousin move in to her apartment and then went to celebrate my uncle's birthday. Now Stina (my roomate) and I have cuddled up and watched Sex and the city with some FINAL chips before we get back to our old eating habits!

Tomorrow I have my first class at 8 so I better turn in now. I am starting my dance classes tomorrow and the gym! At night I have my zeroing again. RAAAAA! So much fun.

So good night beautiful people. See you soon!