I cant wait to do this!!!

Castle hoppin'

Today was spent driving around Skåne trying to find the perfect castle for my sister Christina and her fiancée Johan to get married at next summer. I can't wait for them to get married! Johan is by far the best addition we have had to our family and now I will forever have him as my brother :) 

Tomorrow we are  having brunch at the final castle and then I am practice driving back  up to Stockholm (6 hours drive), because I have my drivers test this week!!! 

And tomorrow night my Jenny Moon is finally arriving and will be spending a few days with me! I am so happy and excited! I can't wait! :) A good week ahead!

I want a necklace like this!

LIFE DOESN'T SUCK.

The other night I had an experience with a taxi driver as I was coming home late from a friend's place. He said to me "You have a smile brighter than any sun, but you have such terrible pain in your eyes. You can't fool anyone with them!" I was surprised and astonished for someone to be so forward with me and especially in Sweden. I looked at him and said "Well, what do you know about pain?" and he answered "Not much, but I know what a lost soul looks like." I had nothing to say, i just smiled at him. When we reached my place he said to me "What is your name?" I said "Stina" He smiled at me and said "Stina, you should be happy that you are so young and lost." I gave him a confused look and he said "Because it is not until we are fully lost, that we really find ourselves. If never lost, you are really never anything, at least not what you fully can be."
I paid him for the ride and as I was jumping out he said "You are full of good karma. Good things are about to happen and your eyes will smile again. Good luck Stina"
And ever since then I have been thinking about this man and what he said.
I think I have been complaining alot lately on being a lost soul, but after my little taxi fair that I realized what an opportunity it is. And maybe the cliché saying "Life isn't about finding yourself, it is about creating yourself" actually is right. I think people stress alot all the time focusing on trying to find their way in this world, and trying to be someone that you are not capable of right now won't help you get there faster... I think you sort of just have to walk different paths to learn which paths gets you home first.
I think everyone is scared of being lost.
But it is a part of life and hopefully everyone goes through it, at least ones.
It is nothing to be ashamed of. It doesn't mean you are depressed or suicidal, it just means that maybe certain events have happened that have changed your living a little and it is just taking some time for you to figure out how to live in a new way.
So if you feel that you can  relate to this post, don't see this time in your life as something negative, see it as an opportunity to become whatever it is you want to become.

This is what my day will look like, so should yours.

Today is a brand new day, a fresh new start.

Replace the negativity with positivity. Think happy thoughts, Exercise, Drink loads of water, Fill your body with fuel, Inspire yourself, Create, laugh, play, Go for a run, do some sit ups, give someone a compliment, make a new friend, tell yourself you are beautiful, tell someone they are beautiful, spread love, make love, be kind and create good karma, hug someone, take a chance, tell someone you love them, experience something new, happy is healthy. 

Shitworksoutifyoujustletit.

Today my friend said something to me, which wasn't very revolutionary but yet it did not only open my ears but also my eyes. I think that majority of all people always seek what the future will bring us, what will happen in a month or months from now. But why are we constantly trying to figure out the best possible outcome in months from now, instead of looking at the present situation and what you can do today?
I can tell you three months ago I had no idea I would be standing here, my plan has changed 360 degree since then. How am I suppose to know what I will be doing in January or what my priorities will be then. You can't be sitting in the present and planing your future, you can have goals, but your plans will change no matter how hard you try to fight it. Focus on what makes you happy today, focus on what YOU, yourself can do, to get to that place you may hope to be in a couple of months or years. Have hopes and dreams, but no plans. Because in a couple of months not only will our plan from today have changed, but you will have a completely new set of plans and goals that you will be striving for six months from now. I think that is what stops us from living in the presents. Start doing shit that makes you happy today. Screw what you want in a month, screw what you want in a year. You will get there if you just follow your heart instead of your head, and most importantly, you will have lived more and learned more about yourself.

Actions speak louder than words.

This is what my future home will look like