See you soon.

Now Henrik has gone back to San Digeo! The entire time I have thought it was going to be easy saying goodbye to him, because we are going to see each other pretty soon. But it always hits you when you get back to your apartment. Now I am just trying to look on the bright side of things.  I can take time to do all the things I need to do. I can focus on school, get my drivers license, get back into Uppsala with everyone and start figuring out everything that is about to come my way. However, looking back on the past 4 months I can't do anything else but to smile. We have shared everything. And I mean EVERYTHING! Every second of every day, I have spent with him. And let me tell you, there are not alot of couples that manages from not seeing each other that much, and only been dating for 5 months (before he left); to living with one and other. Not only did we survive it, but we're hell of a lot more in love and stronger now than ever before. I have seen every side of him; good and bad. I have loved and hated every bit of it. But most importantly; I have appreciated everything about him. He has taught me so much about myself that I didn't even know. He has helped me push my limits and guided me to my goals. He has been there through every day, good and bad, yet he is still not only loves me, but is even more crazy about me and us than you could ever imagine. I know I didn't go to the dance school in LA and I know people may think I regret not going. My plan may have been to go to dance and for fill myself, the fulfillment that I have found with Henrik and in myself is far more than any dance teacher can teach me or dig out of me.

 I am in love. I am so terribly headlessly in love with my Henrik. Not only because he is a killer boyfriend, but because he brings out the best in me and he makes me smile every day. And going to bed knowing that I have someone like him fighting for me, is the only thing I have every dreamed of. Knowing I will have him by my side for the rest of my life, I know I will not only live a good life but a very happy one.

  

I love you.

A dinner with friends.

Tonight we had a little dinner so that Henrik could say goodbye to his close friends. It was suppose to have been a lunch at 2, but ended up being a "dunch" around 5 pm. This is usually how the song goes with these lovely fellow :) It was very nice and nooooow I am sitter here finishing my horrible group project which I want to be over with. Tomorrow morning Henrik leaves again :(

So tonight I am just going to do nothing but stare at him all night, because that I won't get to do that for another 4 months... I don't think I really understand how much I am going to miss him. 

Say hello.

this is how i feel about studying right now.

It can snow.

Still a little bit jet lagged, Henrik and I got up around 6:39 this morning to see the sun crystal on the white snow. We went for a new walk in the beautiful winter weather and a tour around Sollentuna! Then I went back to Uppsala to meet up with my ladies; Sofia, Ullis, Mimmi, Irma and two new people! Malin and her boyfriend Jonathan! It was a great dinner. So nice to be back with everyone. It feels so weird to know that its been almost 4 months since I saw them but it only feels as if it was last week. Tomorrow it is Henrik's last day, so loads will probably be done. It feels soooo weird that he is leaving. Because I am not particularly upset about it. I dont know if its because I get to see him so soon, I dont know... Haha! Well may tomorrow be a great day! Now I am going to finish my project once and for all! I am not going to bed before I do it. Here are my pictures from the past couple of days. 

dark monday.

I am back in Uppsala! It feels so great to be back. I have tried to unpack as much as I can, but there is just soooo much stuff! Today I am going to a funeral. But tomorrow I will definitely have to finish it. 

Henrik leaves in 3 days. It feels weird after 4 months of being glued together. But at the same time it will be nice to be back in Uppsala with everyone again. And it is healthy to be able to be apart as well. (or so they say :) )

But I think that it is important that you don't grow together as one person, you need to remember that you are two individuals sharing something, not being something together. So to say, Have Happy Monday!

What's Your Number? Movie Trailer Official (HD)

Its a really funny movie. I actually liked it alot! SEE IT!

im back in uppsala! Party!

I got to see my Martin and a good day with my boy.

And now I miss San Diego

Insta.gram

Well after the new year I was forced to get a new phone since I didn't have one! So I got an iphone! :) 

Well I have found my obsession with Insta.gram! I love it! It makes it so much more fun when you have absolutely nothing to do!

I got to see my grandma!

a little different, something right.

This is the year of the unknown. This is the year of the future. This is the year for goals. This is the year for new things.
What this new year reminded me of was that things are always changing. Nothing ever stays the same. It is impossible. Things may be one way here and one way there. But never the same.
The last couple of days I have really deepend into the bottom of my soul. My inner thoughts. My third eye. I have been at my summer place, in the middle of nowhere, to clear my thoughts. I really want to make this year THE YEAR. But how do you make something "the year"? where do you start? Well that is what I have been doing for 4 days. I have been meditating, I have been doing yoga, I have showered and bathed, I have read books, I have drank loads of tea. I haven't had a bite to eat. Not because I want to starv but because I don't want to feel anything else than my feelings and thoughts. What it has made me realize is that life is passing you by everyday. Faster than you think. Even on days when you feel like you have done nothing, just laying around the tv or cuddling up with someone. But I can literally say I have done NOTHING, but it has been the best and most fulfilling couple of days. I have listened to my thoughts in a whole new way. I have written pages and pages in my diary, probably over 30 pages by now, because constantly things are coming to me. But it really is the only time when you give yourself, the time to spend just with yourself. I feel as if I have gotten alot of more answers the couple of days than I have in months. I see things more clear. From others perspective, but more my own. When I now realized how little i knew about my own feelings, I realize how important it is to take time for yourself.
You may seek help from your friends and people around you, but then answer is always within yourself. People may tell you how you should do things. But that doesn't mean you should. It may be their way of dealing with things, it may be their way of looking at things. But each individual are different. You have your way of looking at things, that is what defines you. That is what makes you "you".
At the moment I am at a very lifechanging event in my life. And as long or short this road may be, it is a road I need to take by myself. Because only I have my answers.
I know I am making decisions now that will effect alot of relationships around me, my spring semester and my future. But as it lays in my heart, I have made decisions that can only be right. Maybe not make sense to people, but will bring clarity to me.