My daily gesture:

As I was just walking home from having dinner with some friends, I was just about to reach my friend's place. I heard someone crying and when I turned the corner I saw a girl sitting by herself on the stairs. As the store was about to close just up the street, I ran back to it and bought her chocolates. Because I thought in any time of tears, chocolate always cheers someone up. When I got back, the girl was still sitting and sobbing out in the cold. I walked up to the girl and I sat next to her. I said "I know you don't know me, but if you want to talk, I'm good at listening..." the girl didn't say anything she just stared at me. Then I said "Well if I can't cheer you up, I know this chocolate will." The girl gave me a quick smile and then completely fell apart and cried... I just hugged her, because I realized it was the only thing I could do. Then she began to speak and told me why she was crying... We talked for about 40 minutes, until she stopped crying and even got her laughing. I gave the girl the chocolate I had bought and she went back up to her building and I went to my friend.

Now I am sitting here on my bed, just about to go to bed. And I am thinking about the girl. All the girl needed was to ventilate, and not to someone who knew her, to just anyone that had no bias view and to someone that she would most likely never face again. It was such a little gesture from my behalf, but I got her to stop crying and even laughing and probably just helped her from having a sleepless night.
I know I feel alot better knowing that I made some what of an impact today.
Life can suck in all kinds of different ways. But we all need each other to realize that we are not alone. Whether it is from a friend or a stranger :)

Good night.

Closest thing to magic

Sometimes you can't effect the big stuff in life, but you can have a huge impact on the small stuff.

You know when you are in a relationship you always do small cute stuff to make the other person smile, and in a way you make their day. Well it is one of the things that I love most about relationships, doing small touches that turns another person's day around. It is also something that I am really starting to miss. I have all this energy built up, and yet cannot release it!  :)
So I came up with this idea!
I am a heavy believer on karma; If you do good things, good things will happen to you. If you do bad things, it will come biting you back in the ass. Well! As of right now, my karma hasn't been the best! I have been trying to figure out what I have done to have all this crap raining down on me, but to be a 100% honest, I really can't come up with anything!!
So I have decided, instead of figuring out what I may have done, I am going to turn my karma around. By doing good deeds...
So everyday I am trying to do one generous deed that makes someone smile, and maybe even makes their day!
Yesterday I was standing in line to buy a coffee before classs. There was a boy behind me and when I got to the cashier I said "I'll take his coffee as well". The boy looked at me and said "Why? You don't have to do that." and I said "No, I want to. But only if I can do one thing." and the boy agreed to my offer and said "Okay..." I asked for a pen and when the lady behind the counter handed us our coffees, I took the boys cup and drew a Smiley-face on it. Then I handed the cup back to him and said "Have a nice day!" and smiled and walked away.
It was a small gesture but it was a gesture that made the boy smile, and maybe even made his day. But it also made me feel good! I did a good thing, but then also got to load of some of the "cute-couples-stuff" energy that is built inside of me. So honestly, it is so easy to feel better. It's the small stuff that counts.

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Have a beautiful day

I am back in Uppsala and school has begun again. The beautiful summer days are over and the rainy fall has arrived. In a way it is rather refreshing to finally start something new and get back into routines. As of right now I don't really have a home so I am jumping from couches to couches at friend's places until I find my own. This is the last picture of me and my monkey having breakfast in my old apartment, where I used to live with Engel. This is what we did every morning, coffee at 5!
For some reason it feels weird being back here, but yet very exciting. It is nice to have things to do again and meeting everybody! As of right now I am just trying to figure out what I am going to do with my life, I have a lot of different plans and hopes, everything from jobs in Stockholm to California.
And hopefully I will get that sorted out in the upcoming week or two! :)
But now I am going to go out for my morning jog in the beautiful sun, soak up the little that is left!

I need a home...

"YOU CAN’T EXPECT ME TO BE FINE. I DON’T EXPECT YOU TO CARE." - maroon5